I felt as though traveling to Mammoth would be challenging. For me, it would be hurtful to arrive unprepared for the weekend. The idea of fatigue taking over my body, causing the ability on the slopes to become problematic, would have been a lot to swallow. I wanted to be a part of the activities … More Mammoth Preparation
I like the thought of changing behaviors that don’t work in my life. The challenge has been finding the discipline to carry out the changes. Often, there has become a time of slipping back into my old habits. This doesn’t seem to take place with every habit I set forth to improve. But, there are … More I Get A Christmas Tree
There are times when the words are challenging to find. When emotions can overwhelm the ability to think in sentences. The last few months have brought about feelings, causing the words to escape. I ponder the prospect of sitting down to write a blog post and the motivation gets lost. The ambition is lost in … More Unexpected Direction
This season of skiing was pretty momentous. I went from feeling like a beginner, riding the easiest chairlift, to advancing my ability. For a person who has cerebral palsy, there is a little extra excitement in advancing a skill level. I thought the ceiling for me, might have been skiing beginner runs. Which, I was … More Skiing and Cerebral Palsy: I Became a Skier
As my journey with addiction has seemed to step down in phases. The final step has not been accomplished at this point. I continue the challenging work of fully eradicating my negative habit. Having put into place many tools along the path of healing. Things like reading consistently, writing for the blog, playing golf, and … More Addiction and Cerebral Palsy: The Final Step
My brain had changed by the winter of 2022. I was still fighting weekly urges to give into watching pornography. So, it was important to continue with a plan. Something to continue challenging my mind away from becoming idle. Until the winter, most of the tools being relied upon to step away from my negative … More Addiction and Cerebral Palsy: Ski to Heal
Like reading and writing came before, as tools in my healing journey. During the summer of 2021, golf started to play its role in helping the process. During the gradual stepping down of my habitual watching of pornography, reading and writing had played the central role. From helping me identify the issues I might have … More Addiction and Cerebral Palsy: Golf
Writing doesn’t feel like an activity that comes to mind when thinking about a healing journey. I began writing this blog long before I recognized my challenges. I started seeing a psychologist years before the thought of sexual fantasies even nudged my radar. The interesting thing about life can be looking back. All of the small things … More Addiction and Cerebral Palsy: Writing
Having the courage to overcome a fear once is great, there should be nothing taken from the accomplishment. Loading onto the Brooks chair for my first solo ride was scary. Negative thoughts rushing through my mind. Pushing the feeling of wishing I could bail, seconds after leaving the bottom terminal. I took deep breaths to … More Skiing and Cerebral Palsy: The Second Trip
Fear has probably been the best word used to describe my life on the slopes. Starting with the fear of heights, making the ride on the chairlift challenging. The fear of crashing, made it difficult to fully commit to skiing more challenging terrain. Then, I have cerebral palsy, making skiing even more of a challenge. … More Skiing and Cerebral Palsy: A Transition
